bleh

ok so I didn't finish the story about the wedding but that doesn't matter, because in the process of that wedding I lost 2 dear friends.

one was the bride herself, I saw it coming but I was dreading it happening.
In the end she wanted to stay in a place where her beautiful soul will slowly suffocate in an environment of death, but she will be married.

the second was an old friend of mine from high school, he let his girlfriend's purse strings tighten around his nuts so that speaking to me was bad thing.

this boy was there at a time when I was in a bad place, and I was there for him when he needed it. Sadly since he started dating this girl and he has been happy but I guess that he can't be friends with me and be happy with this girl. this angers me because this girl has broken his heart before for frivolous reasons, mainly her friends didn't think he was cool(dumb ass high school)
but a few years after high school her friends change their minds and then they can start dating.

I don't know about other people but if someone doesn't want to be with you because you aren't "cool" (aka the dumbass high school clique definition), then in my opinion they aren't worth the time.
I guess that he wanted to be included in "the crowd" more then being friends with me.

fine then, fuck you, I hope you are happy when your heart gets shattered when you aren't "cool" anymore

God I hate losing friends